This is one of those pages where I was still kinda tweaking the dialogue up until... oh, five minutes ago. I would mention how I hope I got it right, but I'm sure that even if I did, some will disagree.
In fact, based on comments left on previous pages, I'm going to guess responses to this might be somewhat divided. But I still want to hear them. How do you feel about the way Aiken, Jessica and/or even Heather handles things here? What's next for them at this point?
I'm impressed at the level of growth Aiken has experienced as a character. He handled this conversation very respectfully.
I'm not sure what Heather is thinking in panel 2 it intrigues me.
Holy crap! That is gonna be sore for a few days...not what I expected at all, I'm a little surprised that Jessica had that reaction it seems a tad extreme and she is gonna regret doing that when the pain kicks in
I've been in Jessica's situation before, though things were slightly different. I'd broken up with a boy I liked because he was a massive shithead to me, and even when he improved and came back I just... couldn't get the words "It's OK, I forgive you" to come out. I didn't know why, but it just didn't want to work.
Later I figured out that I'm a lesbian, so that has something to do with it, but also I just... couldn't forgive him, even though I'm an almost pathologically forgiving person. The words didn't wanna come out.
I hope Jess and Aiken get back together, because it seems like they'd genuinely work together. It's gonna take time, probably a few months, but they'd work so well on so many levels and Aiken's shown he's not so stupid that he can't learn.
Hate is a lens. When you see someone through it, it magnifies their flaws and reduces their good traits. Day by day, the flaws get larger until they are all you see. Suddenly you're not looking at a person anymore; you're looking at a monster. It's easier to hate a monster because there's nothing to relate to and nothing to empathize with. You start to fantasise about killing the monster and make it suffer the same pains it inflicted on you. Fair's fair, after all.
One day, the monster walks back into your life. You've forseen every possible attack it will make, how you could counter it. Then the monster speaks:
"I'm sorry."
It speaks with a human voice; one tinged with true regret and remorse. Confusion arises - this isn't how a monster is supposed to behave. Your carefully planned attacks and defenses throw up a 404 error. The monster continues to talk and as it does, small parts of itself start falling away, revealing something that looks more and more human. Things you can understand. Worryingly, you begin to feel the small first steps of empathy and you freak out because you're not supposed to empathize with monsters.
After what seems like an eternity, the monster turns and walks away. From the back, it almost looks like a human.
Honestly, this says a lot about Jess' willingness to reconcile. I know that if some of the people that were crappy to me in the past were to suddenly apologize, I know I'd be saying to them "You say you're sorry? That doesn't sweeten my tea-prove it with your actions." Not only that, it would take a lot from them to do so. It's probably terrible of me, but I'm not going to just forget the damage they caused.
I agree with you, once someone has reached that point when I no longer just shrug off their actions as 'mortals make mistakes' it takes an Olympian effort to get me to even want to talk to them. Even if they apologize, their mistakes are still going to be there, hanging over everyone's head, because I'll have told my friends what they did, and they'll have done the same.
Eventually Jessica is going to be glad she reacted with silence (though holy fuck, Ow) because anything she said during that would have been too hinged on her desperate emotions to have someone who was so important to her back.
So much empathy with Jessica right now that it hurts my heart! Had an event like this where if I had been able to say ANYTHING, even a single word, it would have changed my entire life. Please, please, have Jessica or Heather tell Aiken what happened.
In an effort to lighten the mood, I'd like to say that Jessica's faceful (heh) confrontation with the table with the table seems to have finally beaten Fara smacking Ellen Parker with a poster as the most action this strip has seen.
Heather obvs has the feels for Jess and like, yeah Aiken and Jess have it bad in this scene but I kinda feel like maybe Jess is the first person Heather has opened up to, or at least been totally and unconditionally accepted by after telling them that she's intersex. So her witnessing this is probably pretty painful. v.v
Like, good on you Aiken for not being a total ass, but I'm pretty much always gonna be on team lesbian.
I've.. I've done that. Someone broke my heart, and I needed to feel something other than the emotional pain. So I slammed my head against a metal pillar at work, at least twice.
I don't remember much after that, it was a blur. But, I didn't knock myself out, and I didn't go to the hospital.
No, Jessica, you did right. At some point, your heart is going to take over to protect you . . . like right now. Aiken's changed, but you're still deeply hurt to the point where you can't be with him now.
Aiken, you did good.
I'm not sure what Heather is thinking in panel 2 it intrigues me.
Holy crap! That is gonna be sore for a few days...not what I expected at all, I'm a little surprised that Jessica had that reaction it seems a tad extreme and she is gonna regret doing that when the pain kicks in
Later I figured out that I'm a lesbian, so that has something to do with it, but also I just... couldn't forgive him, even though I'm an almost pathologically forgiving person. The words didn't wanna come out.
I hope Jess and Aiken get back together, because it seems like they'd genuinely work together. It's gonna take time, probably a few months, but they'd work so well on so many levels and Aiken's shown he's not so stupid that he can't learn.
Tough crap, this kinda situation. Aiken is a noble little bastard.
One day, the monster walks back into your life. You've forseen every possible attack it will make, how you could counter it. Then the monster speaks:
"I'm sorry."
It speaks with a human voice; one tinged with true regret and remorse. Confusion arises - this isn't how a monster is supposed to behave. Your carefully planned attacks and defenses throw up a 404 error. The monster continues to talk and as it does, small parts of itself start falling away, revealing something that looks more and more human. Things you can understand. Worryingly, you begin to feel the small first steps of empathy and you freak out because you're not supposed to empathize with monsters.
After what seems like an eternity, the monster turns and walks away. From the back, it almost looks like a human.
Eventually Jessica is going to be glad she reacted with silence (though holy fuck, Ow) because anything she said during that would have been too hinged on her desperate emotions to have someone who was so important to her back.
You've got yourself a new sub! :)
Like, good on you Aiken for not being a total ass, but I'm pretty much always gonna be on team lesbian.
Jessica might need an ice pack. Ouch,
I don't remember much after that, it was a blur. But, I didn't knock myself out, and I didn't go to the hospital.
Don't hurt yourself.