Comic 737 - Cancer PSA

1st Oct 2015, 2:15 PM in Special
Cancer PSA
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Jocelyn 1st Oct 2015, 2:15 PM edit delete
So, a couple weeks ago, I had the fun anniversary of being on hormones three years. Tomorrow is a different kind of anniversary.

One year ago tomorrow, I was told I had testicular cancer. It was caught very early, and was very treatable (although it was still the most aggressive kind), so the ordeal seems to be over now. As far as cancers go, I was extremely lucky.

But it was still the biggest ordeal of my life. I still had to go through two surgeries leaving two probably permanent scars on my body, four total months of recovery, the most misgenderings I've ever dealt with in my life, a great deal of depression, the anxiety of thinking about my mortality, and the knowledge that no matter what happens in my future, I will always be "the woman that had testicular cancer" (I'm told I'm one of three recorded cases in the world, and the first recorded case of a trans woman with this specific type of testicular cancer). All of this within the span of the worst 6-7 months of my life.

It weirds me out to think that at this exact time one year ago, I had no idea. All I could think about at the time was how Smash Bros 3DS was coming out in a couple days (which would act as a coping mechanism for me through the next few weeks while I waited for my first surgery).

The only positive I really take from all this, is that I beat it. I wear this bracelet ALL the time to remind myself of that. It reminds me that I am stronger than I give myself credit for. And it reminds me that whatever I'm going through - whatever's hurting me or upsetting me - I've been through worse, and I've conquered it.

So, yeah...

To everybody reading this, make sure you check yourselves.

Another thing specifically for my trans sisters: For me, this was discovered by my doctor because despite two years of HRT at the time, my testosterone levels suddenly started rising to higher than it even started for no reason that made sense. It's what helped catch this so early. It's funny in a way, that being trans may have actually saved my life in that regard (go figure), since a cis person probably wouldn't know their hormone levels. So if you start to see a similar inexplicable rise - don't immediately fret, it could mean a lot of things. But if it happens, there's never a better time to check yourself.

I would say the same for trans men, but I admit I don't know if the hormone thing works the same way. But still, you guys check yourselves too. I know it's unpleasant, and for some of us, it may invoke dysphoria. But we trans folk - no matter which way we're going - are not exempt from getting certain types of cancer just because we're trans or taking hormones or whatever. The cancer won't care. And trust me when I say you want this taken care of as soon as you can.


And this has been my first ever cancer PSA. I sincerely apologize if this is a bummer post, but it's extremely important. Take care of yourselves, Rain Beaus. Be happy, be strong, and stay healthy. I love you all, and have a wonderful rest of the day. :)

(Don't worry. Pages are still coming later too.)
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MrDrSmoothie 1st Oct 2015, 3:06 PM edit delete reply
Congratulations! I hope you stay healthy! :3
Mina 1st Oct 2015, 3:50 PM edit delete reply
"It reminds me that I am stronger than I give myself credit for" Vincent said the same thing about Rain, right? :3

Stay healthy, Survivocelyn! We love you. ^^
j-eagle12212012 1st Oct 2015, 4:37 PM edit delete reply
Thank you for the reminder, even those of us who haven't started hormones need to remember to check (and even cis people need to) like you said cancer doesn't descriminate

Congratulations on beating cancer Jocelyn I hope you stay cancer free forever


Dragonrider 1st Oct 2015, 6:11 PM edit delete reply
Good to read the update, congrats on the anniversary many happy returns. You have a wonderful story and I admire your courage.
Nightsky 1st Oct 2015, 6:41 PM edit delete reply
You say it's a bummer post, but I find it one of the best. There are so many alternatives to this post. It could be an update on your continued battle, it could be a new percentage about your chances of winning. Or there could be no posts at all.

But instead you're posting this, saying you survived. Talking about the strength you get from the knowledge you already beat it. Reminding people to check themselves, and giving tips to other trans girls to keep an eye on their hormones.

It was a hard time, and it would be better that it never happened at all. I can't even begin to comprehend how you felt during that time. But it did happen, and of all the possible updates we could get on the anniversary of the diagnosis, this is the best one.
SnapGrunt 1st Oct 2015, 6:49 PM edit delete reply
Man, gotta have that super smash bros.
Tami99 2nd Oct 2015, 1:20 PM edit delete reply
As I commented during your recovery, I'm proof TC can be beaten. I'm 11+ years since TC surgery. After 10 years my Dr. said my odds now are the same as if I never had it.

Be sure to keep having checkups for reoccurance elsewhere for 10 years. In my case, tumor marker blood tests and x-rays. It can spread through the Lymph system even after surgery. That's why I opted for the "fun" of radiation after. I'm not sure if they even suggest that anymore.

On the silver linings side, my tumor was the type that ironically produces female hormones instead. It made me aware of that part of my true nature. More irony in that what was trying to kill me was causing changes that felt sooo right that I wanted to live more.
Akane 13th Jul 2016, 10:43 PM edit delete reply
Utmost respect, Jocelyn. Your strength to have gone through all this is beyond what I can comprehend in my own life yet. I admire you, and I wish you the best of health and the very best of life as your true self. Keep up being amazing.
Reegan 3rd Sep 2020, 1:50 AM edit delete reply
I'm so glad you beat cancer and are now healthy.
Hooman Bean 25th Nov 2020, 10:48 AM edit delete reply
Years late, but I've read this comic like 4 times, and every time I've reached this page, I've almost cried. You're so strong and brave and you didn't deserve cancer. But you never gave up. You're pretty much my idol. (Sorry if that's kinda weird.)
Hooman Bean 12th Jan 2021, 6:49 PM edit delete reply
I mean, no one deserves cancer.
Introvertgamer13 7th Mar 2022, 5:10 AM edit delete reply
Fuck yea let’s go
RamonaRazzles 22nd Jan 2023, 10:35 AM edit delete reply
I am reading this way in the future. And by the fact that you still post it means you are still alive, and I am so happy about that. I myself will have to screen for cancer in the immediate future(werid lumb behind ear), and I am incredibly worried. But I hope I can come out on top too, if it happens that I DO have cancer. And if it's not cancer, that would be even sweller. Especially since i kinda had that for years and years, and if it WERE cancer it would be very bad. As to why I haven't checked it yet. has to be anxiety and I just have an unhealthy vicious cycle. Truth be told I am somehow more afraid of knowing and part of me wishes to just die and if I die from cancer no one could tell I killed myself by not taking medical care in time. I haven't been ok at all physically or mentally the last year and a bit since I flunked. but if you still read these please just know Jocelyn that your story means a lot to me.
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