If you are virtually ANY category of non-hetero and/or non-cis, and not had Rain’s inner monologue (or something very similar) at some point in your life, consider yourself fortunate. I’m serious. Today, I’m very proud and open about who I am, but I think Rain’s monologue is actually quite toned down from the self-loathing I used to put myself through when I was about her age. It’s weird to think back on now…
On a lighter note, this page was almost called “Rainbow Sprinkles”. I worried it might be inappropriate for the mostly serious nature of this particular page though.
Poor Rain. I had a feeling that the relationship strain would set in, especially with the cover. :( I'm sorry you had to have inner monologues like this too, Jocelyn.
Also, I'd almost think that the rainbow sprinkles are meant to be symbolic given the nature of the monologue. Are they?
Ah, yes. The "if I were normal" monologue. In my case it's especially ramble-y, because until maybe a year ago, everyone thought I was a straight guy (albeme autistic). Fun fun.
At least Rain's good at breaking that cycle of soul-crushing.
I had much worse... Nobody wanted to date me in high school, and after coming out, I felt undatable. I was still in my hometown and all, so everyone knew who I was before... And that wasn't really me. That was a mask I wore so I wouldn't be alone.
Then, when a freshman lesbian who didn't know about me flirted with me, the monologue became, "if she knew, she wouldn't be flirting."
The self loathing... yea, that's a hard one to get over, but I'm working on it. Rain's inner turmoil these last pages could have come from inside my head too.
Reeading everything right now and I just found the "vanilla with rainbow sprinkles". i mean vanilla?!!! i don't know if it's intended but it's perfect!!! <3
My dad is a Pastor, I know all about the negative self-talk the brain can dish out. I never said anything to my dad until a few years ago. He just hugged me until I stopped crying and then said, "You have, and always will be my child and I love you.." .I was expecting a very different response.
Also, I'd almost think that the rainbow sprinkles are meant to be symbolic given the nature of the monologue. Are they?
At least Rain's good at breaking that cycle of soul-crushing.
Then, when a freshman lesbian who didn't know about me flirted with me, the monologue became, "if she knew, she wouldn't be flirting."
(as everything in your comic. thanks so much!)