Comic 331 - Not Like This

19th Feb 2013, 9:32 PM in Ch 13: Togetherness
Not Like This
Average Rating: 5 (12 votes)
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Jocelyn 19th Feb 2013, 9:32 PM edit delete
If I may be honest, I feel like I did something wrong with the last page. I was a little troubled by how many people cheered on Aiken’s getting hit and told off (actually, that didn't happen so much here). It wasn’t really a “victory” as a lot of people seemed to see it. Don’t get me wrong, telling someone off because they don’t accept you IS wholly necessary sometimes (I can’t argue that), but I would never consider it a good thing. I’ve lost friends like this in the past, and as upset as I am that they wouldn’t just accept me for who I am, I still have rather fond memories of these people, and I miss them sometimes.

No, the good thing – the true victory – would be having people accept you for you. Fara didn’t slap Aiken and throw him out to “show him who’s boss”. She wanted to get his attention (and it did, based on the fact that he clearly didn’t fight back). She wanted him to see how serious this whole thing is. It’s a wakeup call. Sometimes we need to hear the last thing we want to hear. It can help put things into perspective. The fact is, Aiken’s probably not actually a bigot… he just doesn’t understand and he’s had a lot of bad experiences regarding the subject. It doesn’t excuse him, but it’s important that his distinction be recognized, I think. And while it’s hard to say if he ever will change his tune or not, Fara felt she had to try… in her own way. Maybe it wasn’t the BEST course of action, but I think it’s safe to say everyone’s a little emotional and perhaps even irrational.

Even on this page, we can plainly see that even with Aiken gone, there is no celebration for anyone here.

The chapter has technically concluded, but there will be one more page on Friday before we jump into the next chapter (right away on Monday; no hiatus). There’s a loose end that’s not been addressed yet…

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Nightsky 19th Feb 2013, 10:33 PM edit delete reply
Poor Rain... It's one thing to have strangers look at you like a freak, but your own family? That's really harsh—just saying it that way doesn't fully express show awful it must be. That last page shows a bit of how awful she feels, too; she calls herself "Baby Sis". You can tell that she wants Aiken to accept her just from that. :(
j-eagle12212012 19th Feb 2013, 10:39 PM edit delete reply

The Rain Avatar is throwing me off. did Rain make it? Because Fara's reaction seems weird...
Jocelyn 19th Feb 2013, 10:50 PM edit delete reply

Rain made it. Probably in a depressed daze.

I should have probably put some kind of time stamp in there to denote that it's been at least a little while since Aiken left. Presumably, long enough for Fara to make hot cocoa for Rain (as demonstrated by the first couple panels).

Fara's reaction is not so much about the Mii itself, as the fact that Rain referred to herself as "Baby Sis" with it. Since her siblings always refer to her as "Baby Bro", it kinda lays it on thick to Fara how important Aiken's opinion is to Rain. In other words, this crushed Rain. As a result, Fara's not so much shocked as she just deeply saddened by the whole situation and perhaps trying not to cry herself for her niece's sake.
GigaNerd17 19th Feb 2013, 10:48 PM edit delete reply
Those last few panels where Rain switches over to her natural voice were heartbreaking. Think I might cry a little. ;~;
Micheal 19th Feb 2013, 11:15 PM edit delete reply
Thanks for uploading another page so soon!
Aislinn 20th Feb 2013, 3:10 AM edit delete reply
Of course it's not a victory. Aiken had earned a rebuke for his behavior, and hopefully it will, in the long run, help him come to understand his mistake.

But that doesn't make it a victory... or anything but pain. Because the worst rejections, the knives that stab deepest into our hearts, always come from family. And to have your own sibling reject you that badly... I'm crying, right along with Rain.
Mejui 21st Feb 2013, 7:30 AM edit delete reply
Because the kicker is that Aiken genuinely cares for and loves Ryan. He's confused and hurt, and might even want to protect him.

Why are the dissenting opinions from loved ones the opinions that matter most to us?
AliJ5533 20th Feb 2013, 7:09 AM edit delete reply
A loose end... I can't even think what it could be, or rather, there are too many things. So much happened this chapter.

Ahhhh! Hurry up Friday!
Rebelcheif 20th Feb 2013, 11:20 PM edit delete reply
This story is extremely compelling, and I pretty much read the whole thing in a matter of hours. I also want to say that I hope you continue this amazing story. People who are weird, and abnormal like Rain, Rudy, Kylie, and Maria are just so cool! Also I really hope I can get your books to. More please!
Brooke 2nd Mar 2013, 4:06 PM edit delete reply
Yeah, this made me tear up. I've been lucky in my coming out so far, but this exact situation and those feelings have been what I've been most afraid of through it.
Kyla 22nd Oct 2013, 6:04 AM edit delete reply
:Sob: ='( I just lost my best friend of 23 years today because he can't see me as Myself. I started Transitioning over 16 months ago. It's really hard some times when people you've loved and cared about for so long just ups and turns their backs on you. ='(
Albireo 20th Dec 2013, 3:33 AM edit delete reply
Dang...this is just one of those moments where you just want to hug. Partially because the feelings make you want a hug too after things hit you so hard.

Great job on this one. Strangely, that smack of emotional pang is where I'd call my nightly blaze through so many comic strips an end.

I can see Aiken probably getting the wake up call alone, but we'll see. Hopefully he comes to understand his love with this in time too, despite there being a bit of dirty play on the other side there too. In which I mean going to the point of marriage without "coming out", so to speak. And thats coming from someone who doesn't see much point to marriage, at least at this point in my life.
Syrup 6th Sep 2014, 10:08 AM edit delete reply
damn you keeping making fara just get better and better and better can your finally bringing back the old rain
Gwen 6th Aug 2015, 11:03 AM edit delete reply
I already know what happens (this is my third time through the story), so my position may be a bit biased, but seeing Aiken's face and how he didn't really fight back after Fara slapped him, I think that's when it clicks in his head that maybe he's being the bad guy.
Lex-Kat 18th Nov 2016, 12:59 AM edit delete reply
I think the turning point was when she told him he was just like his father.
Akane 16th Jun 2016, 7:59 PM edit delete reply
This literally left me speechless. Of all 331 pages I've read so far, nothing hit me straight at the heart so much as this one. Rain, I'm right there with you...crying the same way as you are. And honestly I truly wish I had someone like Aunt Fara in my family to accept me for who I am. If it wasn't a tedious and painful building up of steam to do come out to my family and friends, even after I did I am still called by the exact same name and pronous as I was before, despite asking repeatedly to try not to seem like they're doing that on purpose.
... Thanks internet for support, and thank you Jocelyn for the most down-to-Earth slice-of-life comic I've seen in my 23 years of life so far. May someday a better day dawn upon us, the transgendered living in denial's grasp...
*Hugs rain deeply with the exact same feelings*
Guest 28th Oct 2016, 9:09 PM edit delete reply
Thought: In the pages leading up to the slap, everyone was hating Aiken. But now that he's been slapped, people are suddenly treating him as more than a one-dimensional jerk. Even some people who were previously saying 'Aiken is a complete monster and there is no way he can be redeemed'.
Weird, huh?
Lynn 5th Sep 2018, 1:34 AM edit delete reply
That happens when a character starts showing more dimensions. Nothing excuses the way he's treated Rain these past two chapters, but after the slap and the comparison to his father, he started showing another side of him that we'd only seen in hints over the last two chapters.

Don't get me wrong, he's still a jerk, he's just a jerk with another dimension to him. :P
AriaOfEffect 17th Sep 2021, 11:40 AM edit delete reply
A couple pages have been gut punches but this was the first one to make me cry.
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