Comic 1368 - Illusion

26th Apr 2021, 10:23 AM in Ch. 42 - One Day at a Time
Average Rating: 5 (12 votes)
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Jocelyn 26th Apr 2021, 10:23 AM edit delete
"But Jocelyn! It's been almost four months in canon since Rain started HRT. Surely something more should have happened by now. On average, most trans girls will see breast growth within the first three months!"

Well, "most" trans girls isn't the same as "all" trans girls. That's not everyone's experience. Some will and some won't. Our bodies are all unique and will respond to the same treatment in different ways. And I think it's important to depict these exceptions, because I hear that statistic above a lot - heck, I've repeated it a lot. But I also know girls who beat themselves up because they're three months or six months or one year into their transition, and not seeing that growth they were "told to expect".

HRT's effects can take years, though. I'm sure I've told this story before, but I knew someone who said they couldn't fill an A-cup for the first four years of their transition. And then in year five, they went up to a D-cup. That's not going to be everyone's experience either, but I think it's important to remember anything can happen.

There's absolutely nothing wrong with being excited about the effects of HRT. I think it's natural for us to be eager to "see the magic happen". But please try to be patient, and please be kind to yourself if it doesn't quite go as by the books as you may have hoped for. As for Rain, maybe she just has to wait a little longer. It's okay, though. This doesn't change anything. Trans women are women; being a late bloomer or just plain having small breasts doesn't take that away.

Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

Friendly reminder that Rain is now available in French (courtesy of the translation of my friend, Mia)! We're up to six chapters now live as of this weekend, and more will go up every Saturday. ^_^

While I know most of you can and probably do already read in English, the option is there if you're bilingual, or if you know anyone who is more comfortable reading in French that you think might enjoy the story. I invite you to share this with anyone you think this might benefit. ^_^
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Anastasia 26th Apr 2021, 10:54 AM edit delete reply
"I knew someone who said they couldn't fill an A-cup for the first four years of their transition. And then in year five, they went up to a D-cup."

Please please let this be me, omg >< Mine are still pretty small after almost 4 years :/
Fox 26th Apr 2021, 2:35 PM edit delete reply
Yeah same amount of years here. But we'll see. I'm glad with what i got but i wouldn't be displeased with a good bit more.
A Sapphic Game Dev 26th Apr 2021, 3:09 PM edit delete reply
I’m 7 years in (started at age 17) and I was already super happy with my small breasts, but with gaining a little bit of pandemic weight, being more consistent with injections, and just now being the time I guess, my breasts are growing again. Don’t count yourself out!
Anastasia 26th Apr 2021, 6:01 PM edit delete reply
1. Your username is amazing and hilarious.

2. That is wonderful news :3 I started at 24 and am now 28, so here's hoping!
A Sapphic Game Dev 27th Apr 2021, 8:53 AM edit delete reply
It’s so easy to forget how long puberty actually takes. To late bloomers and slow growers!
Anastasia 27th Apr 2021, 10:38 AM edit delete reply
My first puberty started when I was 6, and I was still slowly gaining body hair in college. It's bonkers.
LadyAnastasia 27th Apr 2021, 10:47 AM edit delete reply
I remembered I have an account and should have been messaging with this XD
naobilynn 28th Apr 2021, 10:58 AM edit delete reply
And don't leave out that some girls don't get bigger than an A. I've yet to hit the A cup and I was born with female parts. I know alot of girls really want decent sized natural breasts but it isn't always in the cards. Remember that breasts don't equal female.
Fox 28th Apr 2021, 1:52 PM edit delete reply
Well with the volume i got i'd probably have a C if my ribcage wasn't as ridiculously wide. (talking about 45i here). And yeah tbh i started age 30 and shape-wise they seem fully developed so i doubt anything will add. But it would be better for finding good fitting clothes if they were significantly bigger. But imo it's still too early to decide for a BA or not.

I only wish gaining weight had any influence whatsoever.
Arkfall 26th Apr 2021, 11:17 AM edit delete reply
Honestly, I don’t even know if I want HRT. Heck, I only have come out to a couple of friends. I want to have kids who are biologically mine and even though I know sperm freezing works relatively well, I don’t love the idea of being infertile
Blue Sawyer 26th Apr 2021, 9:15 PM edit delete reply
That's totally valid and ok! You don't have to transition if you don't want too. Not wanting to go through the hassle of physical transition doesn't make you 'less genderqueer' and I'm tired of people thinking it does. Do what makes you happy and comfortable!
Anonymoose 27th Apr 2021, 10:22 PM edit delete reply
Please don't force the label of genderqueer on someone that may not identify that way. Not everyone that transitions (or doesn't) identifies with that label. I know I don't!
Julia 26th Apr 2021, 11:22 AM edit delete reply
Rain is canonically a year older than me and seems to be having the same luck with her breast development. Eager to see who wins out in the long run :)
arkathenia 26th Apr 2021, 12:23 PM edit delete reply
Yeaaaah, reminds me of my curves. Most of my outfits are more padding than anything else... it's nice to be able to cover everything up with most any outfit. I really do have about 80% of the options I would otherwise have. <3
Zibiah 26th Apr 2021, 1:34 PM edit delete reply
Yeah, honestly, I started HRT at 19, and didn't really see any visible changes until like, 7 months in.
Isabelle 26th Apr 2021, 1:56 PM edit delete reply
wish i was on hrt, but sadly, my stupid parents wont let me, Ones reasoning is "what if you change your mind" the others is "your mental health is bad and estrogen will make it worse"

P.S. Rain is so heckin cute
A Sapphic Game Dev 26th Apr 2021, 3:11 PM edit delete reply
Hopefully you can get them to understand them that the whole point of HRT is to improve mental health.
Ane Gartlin9 26th Apr 2021, 5:08 PM edit delete reply
Ane Gartlin9
^ this
& its easier to get a tattoo and that is as irreversible as hrt (maybe more or less idk) so that isn't the best argument (#venting)
Blue Sawyer 26th Apr 2021, 9:16 PM edit delete reply
It's easier to stop hormones than it is to get a tattoo lasered off. So yeah, that argument is completely sound.
K 26th Apr 2021, 2:16 PM edit delete reply
In my 12 years now of a on going transition I can say that there are many ups and downs. Try to take the small wins when you can otherwise you get lost in the losses. I've seen so much change for the younger generation for the better and I hope it gets even better for them.
mai 26th Apr 2021, 3:09 PM edit delete reply
Just curious, did you see many big changes after 4-5 years?

I’ve hit the 4 year mark and I’m just kind of wondering if this is my endgame (not that it’s bad by any means!!)
mai 26th Apr 2021, 3:08 PM edit delete reply
In year four of my transition sitting at a small B cup since year one lol.

They started to grow more and then I got off HRT for SRS 😂.

Here’s hoping they’ll start back up.

One thing that I’ve learned, however, is that it’s really important to keep a healthy weight. I was always super underweight due to body image issues. As a result, it affected my transition until I got it under control.

Take care of yourself and HRT will take care of you. :)
chrystal_dark 26th Apr 2021, 4:52 PM edit delete reply
I think it's worth pointing out that not all cis women are well endowed. Maria doesn't have much more than Rain appears to have!
Ane Gartlin9 26th Apr 2021, 5:11 PM edit delete reply
Ane Gartlin9
indeed, tho rain those have padding as she says herself
chrystal_dark 26th Apr 2021, 8:01 PM edit delete reply
Very true, but, without meaning to raise any sore point (I'm cis so I have no idea what most of you are going through - which is why I read this comic!) the very existence of padded bras, lift-and-shape bras, bustiers, and a whole host of other lingerie, not to forget boob-jobs, all these things exist because women want bigger breasts!

I think my point is that, as Jocelyn says, different people's bodies react in different ways. So, don't be disheartened if your HRT doesn't give you G-cup beasties (and permanent back ache!)... There are plenty of cis women who are flat as pancakes, because that's what their genes gave them!
Lurking Lady 27th Apr 2021, 9:13 AM edit delete reply
As a cis woman with maybe small Bs on my best days (size can fluctuate a bit over the year), I can definitely attest to the fact that even gene produced ones aren’t always going to be large, and also to the fact that it doesn’t make someone any less of a woman or any less attractive. It’s not an easy lesson to learn, especially in societies that seem to value larger breasts on women, but you’re still valid regardless.
Ane Gartlin9 (From mobile 27th Apr 2021, 5:37 PM edit delete reply
Yea your probably right, I don’t know stuff like this yet cus I’m just starting out (I think I’m just out of the questioning faze with still a lot of questions)
Vick 16th May 2021, 4:10 AM edit delete reply
Actually, not everyone wants bigger breasts. I had an anatomy like Maria’s here, and being kind of genderqueer / fluid / something I was really happy NOT to have bigger than A cups. Pregnancy changed things, and I miss the smaller me…
It also depends on the culture, I guess that some countries in Europe are less focused on breasts than the US.
bgb16999 26th Apr 2021, 5:27 PM edit delete reply
Mine are still pretty small after close to two years, though I'm slowly going up in E doses so we'll see.
WindFaeMaiden 26th Apr 2021, 8:57 PM edit delete reply
Its nice seeing the comments say things are still changing and going on after 4 years of HRT. I just hit my 4 year mark, its kinda fun knowing all the changes aren't over :P
Absentia 26th Apr 2021, 10:38 PM edit delete reply
whatever she ends up with, i'm sure she'll be cute!
j-eagle12212012 27th Apr 2021, 8:14 AM edit delete reply
Personally for me
I noticed buds forming about 3 months in but they didn't even become noticable till like 10 months in.
I started progesterone about 4 months ago and I've gone from small A cups to large B cups

I'll be happy if I end up with large C's by the time they stop growing

It's different for everyone and it takes time.

A group I'm in on discord recently did transition timeline photos and it was super validation when we were all pointing out how much more feminine we all look now regardless of where we are in our transitions
Guest 27th Apr 2021, 10:03 AM edit delete reply
Cis woman here in my mid-20s and I still don't fill an A cup. *shrugs* different people have different bodies. I used to be bothered by it but then I got into running and now I just see it as an advantage that they don't get in the way while I run.
Jules 27th Apr 2021, 10:53 AM edit delete reply
HRT is just like puberty (well because it is) cis girls don't grow at the same rate too.

MelodyLaw 27th Apr 2021, 6:13 PM edit delete reply
Yeah, I can sympathize with a lot of trans women who continue to have the same size breasts years after starting HRT than they did pre-HRT.

Personally, it's been 3 years for me and I believe that they have grown slightly, but they're no where near the size most trans women around me have in the same time frame. Here's hoping that they grow more before they stop growing.
Barnarnar 1st May 2021, 1:07 PM edit delete reply
I read a lot of TG/TF stories on sites like and the transformation archives, so I think some false expectations may come from reading stories by authors who wishfully think that someone who takes a few birth control pills with estrogen in them will have D-cup breasts a month later.

I was amazed (and somewhat disappointed) after reading a thousand or so of those stories to find out that things did not work that way in the real world.
Absentia 2nd May 2021, 5:13 AM edit delete reply
hi yes, hello there. how would one go about getting a list of said stories from you? asking for a friend who is me.
Glovely 3rd May 2021, 11:58 PM edit delete reply
I would love to know where and how Rain got her swimsuit, or where I can find something like it. I have 0% confidence in my swimsuit body and would love something that can give me the illusion of curves until I actually get some HRT going.
Ron 4th Jul 2022, 3:11 PM edit delete reply
Admittedly I paid as little attention to it as possible because it was the wrong puberty, but mine was naturally a late bloomer (nearly 'abnormally delayed' late), and I didn't start getting chest material or anything until around 16, at which point it hit like a truck. My second puberty has also been really slow, but more gradual. I'm now year 8 of HRT and chin hairs are still slowly filling in.
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