Comic 1220 - I...

10th Jan 2020, 8:31 AM in Ch. 38 - Supportive
Average Rating: 5 (10 votes)
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Jocelyn 10th Jan 2020, 8:31 AM edit delete
I was nervous about Wednesday's post, and now I'm nervous about this one. ^^;

There's actually a lot I want to say here, but I'm struggling with words at the moment. Maybe it's better if I just let the page do the talking this time.

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Lyra Nyx 10th Jan 2020, 9:50 AM edit delete reply
Wow, this is totally not the direction I expected. After her eyes got all dark, I expected Kellen to blow up on Heather.

I'm really glad to see that Kellen is at least trying to understand. Even seeing her call Rain by her chosen name is leaps and bounds better than the last time we saw her.
Larryn 10th Jan 2020, 10:10 AM edit delete reply
Good catch on the name thing! Thanks, I would’ve missed it.
Magical Girl Esme 10th Jan 2020, 9:55 AM edit delete reply
This is a great page! Like many people, Kellen doesn't understand but at least sees that and acts like she wants to understand. Maybe Heather can help her learn to accept Rain (and the others) for what they are.
Guest 10th Jan 2020, 10:09 AM edit delete reply
I've never struggled with any of these issues, but I have family that have. They've done terrible things because they didn't understand and they did what they thought was right and they feel genuinely bad for hurting family but they also have a hard time dealing with gender and sexuality issues because they've never had to and feel like suddenly they need to be perfect or are terrible and the turmoil really hurt them.

Did it excuse their actions? Hell no! Kellen's can't be excused either. She doesn't deserve forgiveness. Hurting someone, intentional or not, is wrong. This reads that she regrets hurting Rain, but she still didn't understand the complex hurt she inflicted. Kellen isn't there yet and it might take her a long time to ever really understand. It's nice to see she is trying though.

I'm just happy to see you writing this because there are a lot of people like Kellen who are hurting others out of confusion, frustration, and other factors. It's not malice, but the actions can be vicious. It would have been so easy to just make her a straight up villain but instead you've really captured a weird struggle for some cis people. I think that's important. Some cis people need complete mental turnarounds to be good allies and that can take a lot of time. I hope Kellen gets there one day.
Vulcan 10th Jan 2020, 4:44 PM edit delete reply
Nobody's perfect. Everyone hurts someone at some point. Hating someone for that hurt FOREVER just poisons the hater, not the hated.

She's trying to be better. And that's all we can ask of anyone.
Pacce 10th Jan 2020, 11:08 AM edit delete reply
I friggin love characters with nuance. They're so much more interesting than evil for evil's sake characters. Or even always right good characters.
Guest 10th Jan 2020, 11:29 AM edit delete reply
Ooh is "getting help" a reference to when Vincent gave Kellen his card, I wonder?

The topic of forgiveness is greatly affected by the comic time phenomenon. For most readers, it has been years since Kellen cut Rain's hair, but for Rain and her friends, it has only been a few months. I want to forgive Kellen after reading this page. I am perhaps influenced by how much she reminds me of Rain (behaviourally as well as how she looks - panel 3 is a very "Rain" pose+expression). However, as a reader, it isn't really my place to forgive her or not, and mostly I just have to hope for redemption in the eyes of the characters.
redlupine 10th Jan 2020, 12:20 PM edit delete reply
Good catch on it referring to her seeing Vincent. And the fact that she is doing so shows that she really does care about her family. These were not just empty words, there have been actions to show her trying to understand and improve her relationship with Rain.
MavistheRainBeau 10th Jan 2020, 1:15 PM edit delete reply
I love this comic, if only because it's the nicest we've ever seen Kellen. I don't like her as a person, but I do like character growth, and it's obvious that Kellen is going through some character growth pains.
j-eagle12212012 10th Jan 2020, 1:25 PM edit delete reply
I'm all for the redemption of a character , it's good to see Kellen actually trying to be better. But Rain isn't going to forgive her anytime soon and even if she does it will take even longer to trust her if ever again
Guest 10th Jan 2020, 7:41 PM edit delete reply
Well you may be surprised, Rain may forgive her, they are siblings after all. Trust maybe not, but I think Rain likes to give people a second chance.
Long-Time Lurker 10th Jan 2020, 3:40 PM edit delete reply
Ooo, she called Rain RAIN! Go Kellen! <3
Long-Time Lurker 10th Jan 2020, 8:56 PM edit delete reply
Fan theory: Heather's giving Kellen the comfort/support/brutal-truth she wished she herself had.

Also, she called Rain RAIN! <3 I'm pleased by this development.
Mir 10th Jan 2020, 9:11 PM edit delete reply
I'm conflicted about this, honestly. On one hand, it's good character development for Kellen. On the other, giving every antagonist in the story a redemption arc is getting pretty tiring, real life humans are rarely so willing to admit being wrong and trying to do better. I'm likely projecting a bit with that bit, but it's true enough to the typical trans experience at least.
Jocelyn 10th Jan 2020, 10:55 PM edit delete reply

Oh? Every antagonist has had a redemption arc?

You mean besides Father Quenton, Todd Bittner, Chase, and Mr. Strongwell? Because none of them were redeemed. Not to mention characters who don't get screen time, but we've still seen/heard the damage they've done, like Emily's mom, Ana's mom, Ky and Heather's mom, and most notably, Rain's dad. There are rather a lot of unredeemed antagonists. In fact, I'd maintain that most of this story's antagonists did not seek or attain redemption.

Shitty, awful, irredeemable people absolutely exist in this world. I won't argue that (I've been on the receiving end of too many of them myself). But I refuse to believe everyone who's ever been combative or close-minded is just beyond redemption. I simply can't accept that. Then I'd be irredeemable too, because I was a pretty ignorant kid once, and said a lot of things I look back on and regret. I think most of us have stuff like that. We're human. And humans grow.

I'm sorry to hear you find all this tiring, but I think it's very important to show that growth here. :)
Tramuntana 11th Jan 2020, 5:15 AM edit delete reply
Well, you said it better than me Jocelyn.
Mir 11th Jan 2020, 8:04 AM edit delete reply
I was mainly thinking of Emily, Aiken, Heather in that comment, and compared to those 9 you mentioned I concede that it was plainly inaccurate to say 'all', and additionally apologize for the rudeness. This particular bit struck a nerve with Rain apparently getting her sister back, and I let the jealousy/resentment get the better of me. I understand your position, and how it's presented in the story, even if i can't agree with it; not that i think every jerk is beyond redemption or anything, but a lifetime of being burned for giving people chances that they use to cause more harm has left me cautious and cynical. Again though, that's all me, and contrary to what I said previously, seeing and hearing that others in similar shoes manage to get better outcomes is actually quite nice, regardless of the fantasy of it. Thanks again for the story and your patience.
Mturtle7 5th Mar 2022, 6:30 PM edit delete reply
I love how many times that, while exploring these old comment sections, I've seen someone level a criticism against the author, receive a civil & thoughtful response, and then promptly apologize and explain the motivations behind their criticism in just as civil & thoughtful a manner. If more people could be as self-aware as you, @Mir, the Internet would be a much nicer place to discuss things.
Timinthy 11th Jan 2020, 2:02 PM edit delete reply
Preach, Jocelyn!!
Fox 10th Jan 2020, 9:16 PM edit delete reply
I think Kellen needs to learn that you don't have to understand to be supportive, kind, and compassionate to someone. At the end of the day, you don't have to "get it" just listen and then respect their boundaries and be supportive, it's not as complicated as some people make it. Glad to see Kellen's growing, even if I don't like her as a person.
Guest West 11th Jan 2020, 2:15 AM edit delete reply
Well, yeah.

She's paying lip service to caring about Rain but focusing on how hard it is for herself. See, what Kellen is doing is instigating a pity party and making it all about herself. It's for working up to a turnaround.

I don't know what the author intends to do in regards to Kellen (albeit, I have suspicions). But I've seen a fair share who were (and still are) just like her. I've heard some make the same noise as Kellen. Usually this is NOT a TRUE intent to make real and lasting change. More often the person wants to continue acting bad but doesn't want the blame for it and tries to pump up the pity. IRL there is rarely a happy ending with such as Kellen.
Allison 11th Jan 2020, 10:01 AM edit delete reply
> you don't have to "get it" just listen and then respect their boundaries and be supportive

I have a number of non-binary friends, and I don't exactly "get it" either (despite being non-binary/femme myself -- there are as many ways to be non-binary as there are non-binary people), but I owe it to them to try to at least get their pronouns and other gendered words right.

I'm still struggling to say "siblings" and not "sisters" for two from the same family. But if I don't keep struggling to show them the respect they need, what kind of friend am i?
ceci 11th Jan 2020, 8:24 AM edit delete reply
I wouldn’t be surprised at this rate if Kellen is able to patch things up... but if I were Rain, I’d never sleep in the same building as Kellen again. That kind of thing doesn’t heal the same.
readingchameleon 11th Jan 2020, 8:18 PM edit delete reply
This is such a realistic reaction here! Well done. I could totally see this happening IRL.
Susan 12th Jan 2020, 2:14 AM edit delete reply
She can cry all she wants, she still cut Rain's hair.
Guest West 14th Jan 2020, 1:28 AM edit delete reply
This! ^^^
Queen Wolfen 12th Jan 2020, 7:47 PM edit delete reply
Queen Wolfen
I was not expecting these feels... TT^TT
DocMesa 13th Jan 2020, 10:41 AM edit delete reply
What people people have said about hating stirs up a few ghosts for me.

I was a pretty hateful kid/teen when I was younger - by this I mean there was a lot of people I hated. The people that used to bully me, a friend that betrayed me, people I used to work for - it changed me. I saw hateful things everywhere. Someone said something thoughtless about me? In they go into my "hate" box and once they're in there, it makes things so much easier. You can ignore everything they say and do, because their comments have no value. There's wonderful high from seeing them get their comeuppance and their unhappiness afterwards. They cease to become a person and just become a thing or a concept.

But it changes you, too. The hate box is always hungry for new additions and before long it starts eating bits of you as well. It starts with your ability to trust. Then your ability to empathise. Then sympathise. Your sense of enjoyment becomes warped and twisted until finally, the hate box finally consumes you.

Climbing out of there, rebuilding yourself and then your relationships with friends, family and new people takes years and a lot of help. But every journey starts somewhere.

/end random ramble
Guest West 14th Jan 2020, 1:26 AM edit delete reply
That's when it's good to take in a kitty or two and learn their ways. You can love kitties and they will love you right back. 😻💞
erica jane 14th Jan 2020, 12:33 AM edit delete reply
I just don't buy into Kellen's feelings. It all sounds good, but... yeah.

I still remember what my best friend told me years ago. Forgive, never forget, not ever... But definitely forgive.
Josef 14th Apr 2020, 6:58 PM edit delete reply
*pat pat*
Guest 26th May 2021, 3:41 PM edit delete reply
SHe said Rain? right?
AriaOfEffect 21st Jun 2022, 9:11 PM edit delete reply
I....would like a Heather.
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