Comic 358 - The Author's Transition

17th Apr 2013, 11:44 AM in Special
The Author's Transition
Average Rating: 5 (16 votes)
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Author Notes:

Jocelyn 17th Apr 2013, 11:44 AM edit delete
Okay, I don't normally share this type of thing here, because it's not REALLY comic-related (you may have noticed, I just change my icon every month to show progress). But Rain IS about a transgirl, so I think it's applicable enough. After all, I'm sharing this one everywhere else; I may as well post it here too.


Not gonna lie. I was real nervous about doing this! So, do be gentle. XD

Anyway, I'm seven months on hormones today, and I've been wanting to make the comparison pic for a while. I took the "before" picture way back then strictly so I COULD do this someday (I just wasn't exactly sure when). Of course, I say "way back then", but really, for seven months, the time has flown.

But I chose now because, I dunno, I just feel more convinced of myself than ever before. I don't know what caused that; I mean, very little that I'm aware of changed this past month. All my measurements are exactly where they were last month. Even my weight was, oddly enough, identical down to the decimal point (actually, that kind of impressed me). I noticed my leg and arm hair is growing slower and a little lighter. I shave it anyway, so it's not really a big deal to me, but it's still kinda cool (it'd be cooler if it was the facial hair, but you know...).

So yeah, I think it's just confidence, plain and simple. I feel better about myself as I go. So I end up trying harder to effectively maintain that. So I end up looking better as a result and passing better. This all lends to a vicious circle of self-appreciation. I mean, here I am, thinking I look more authentically femme than ever, and for the first time, I also don't think I even look like the same person. Coincidence?

It's kind of eerie seeing these two pics side by side. I know it wasn't that long ago that I really looked like that fellow to the left, but it just seems like such a foreign idea to me now. If I weren't me, I'd probably think those two were brother and sister (which is itself funny because I totally DO look like my actual sister now). XD


Comments are welcome, but if you're thinking anything mean-spirited or disparaging, please keep it to yourself. Thank you.

And actually, I'd also like to see NO self-defeating comments below either ('cause I tend to get those). One of the big reasons I post progress photos, is as an inspiration for others like me. I'm not trying to boast here; I want to remind people that this is possible. Give you a goal to strive for. Because until seven months ago, I feared that this would never happen. I believed that the only place I'd see that second image is in my dreams. But I worked hard for this (am still working hard), and I think it shows. And one of the biggest inspirations for myself advancing this far, was other trans people showing their progress online. I'm just giving back what was given to me.

So please, don't beat yourself up. If you were going to say something like "you're so pretty and I'm not" or "I'll never look that good", don't. That's not the compliment you think it is. And I guarantee you're more beautiful than you give yourself credit for. If you're going to include yourself in your comment, try to say something nice. Not for me. For you. If you don't, I will. And when I do, don't tell me I'm wrong or deny it; I know what I mean, and I mean what I say.

Thank you, everyone. I love you all, and I wish you a wonderful day. ^_^
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kelverse 17th Apr 2013, 12:06 PM edit delete reply
Wow! In all honestly, until I saw the "before" and "After" below the pictures I thought it was brother and sister! Congrats on 7 months, that is really awesome. If I saw you I would not think twice about you being anything other than a girl. So lovely~

I just... wow. Congrats on your progress! :D
Nightsky 17th Apr 2013, 12:26 PM edit delete reply
I've noticed your avatar change over time, and I have to admit, you've changed a lot since you started. At the start, you were still kind of mannish, but since then you've become more and more feminine, and now look where you are! It's amazing.

I have to thank you. Before I started reading this, I didn't fully understand what it's like to be transsexual. I remember years ago, when I was still at an elementary school student at a Catholic school, I heard about transsexualism and called it sick and disgusting. Since then I've changed a lot (naturally), and by the time I found Rain I was really open to it, but after reading this I've come to really understand what it entails.

Thank you for making this comic, Jocelyn. You're an amazing person just for being you.
Jocelyn 17th Apr 2013, 2:57 PM edit delete reply

Thank you. I'm so glad that my story could help educate you about the subject. ^_^
Alice Sara 17th Apr 2013, 1:37 PM edit delete reply
Alice Sara
Wow! You look great!

(And, like, I'm so super omega jealous! I've been on hormones since December 2010 and I'm barely an A cup.(T.T))

EDIT: And this isn't a self-defeating comment! I like myself! I just wish I had slightly larger breasts!
Jocelyn 17th Apr 2013, 3:02 PM edit delete reply
@Alice Sara:

I understand, hon. On the plus side, there is still time. Hormones can cause changes for up to 5-6 years. I actually know one woman who said she barely filled an A-cup in her first year. By the time I met her, she'd been on it for four years already, and she was a D-cup.

That's probably a rare example, but it just goes to show you really never know. Hold out hope; anything can happen. ^_^
Kate 17th Apr 2013, 3:26 PM edit delete reply
Agreed, that's a totally successful physical transition!

I didn't develop much beyond an A-cup either, but I had a breast augmentation while I had my SRS, and now am nicely proportional. A lot of people say a lot of things about boob jobs, but pfeh, it made me happier, and they look great and not like the 'fake' boobs people think of. So if the magic of Estrogen isn't enough (and it's awesome magic), there's a perfectly fine, if more expensive, solution. (Compared to the other surgery, it was cheap and easy!)
The Letter M 17th Apr 2013, 2:25 PM edit delete reply
The Letter M
What a change in only seven months. You're beautiful.
Mejui 17th Apr 2013, 2:47 PM edit delete reply
As a transgal just about to start hormones myself (hopefully!), this is indeed hugely inspiring. So much change in just seven months! And it's kind of obvious from the pictures that you feel better about yourself now ;) Which means there's a good chance I'll feel better about myself soonish, as well!

So exciting!
Jocelyn 17th Apr 2013, 3:03 PM edit delete reply

That's wonderful news, hon. I wish you the best in your own transition as well. ^_^
Sophie 17th Apr 2013, 5:27 PM edit delete reply
You look so much happier in the more recent pic. I'm happy for you!
Karen 17th Apr 2013, 10:59 PM edit delete reply
This actually gives me a lot of hope, since you and I have similar facial structures... Yay~
Tily 17th Apr 2013, 11:54 PM edit delete reply
Wow, what a difference! You look gorgeous, and so much happier! Not a trans myself (I'm in the bisexual boat instead), but I have seen a few friends go from one gender to the other, and at least once been one of their only supporters... it appalls me how mean spirited some people can be about someone becoming who they really truly are on the outside, not just the inside. Very happy for you, and glad that it is making you happier! It will only get better from here, I wish you nothing but the best of luck =)

Thank you for making this awesome comic, by the way. I stumbled on it and read straight through from the beginning. I look forward to the updates, both the comic, and your progress =)
CyberSkull 18th Apr 2013, 2:09 AM edit delete reply
Quite a dramatic transformation. :)
sky14kemea 18th Apr 2013, 3:58 AM edit delete reply
Holy crap, it's like your a completely different person! O:
Kitsune kun 18th Apr 2013, 7:00 AM edit delete reply
Wow. Congratulations ^.^ question , after all this time, do you consider the old you "dead" ???

Oh, and this ones from my brother:
Oppa gangam style, heeeeeeeeeyyy sexy lady.

(Looks like my bro has a crush on you :3)
j-eagle12212012 18th Apr 2013, 7:18 AM edit delete reply
You look amazing. This gives me hope because I will be starting hormones soon [Hopefuly. My doctors are worried about my weight]
MarianLH 18th Apr 2013, 10:25 AM edit delete reply
Annie 18th Apr 2013, 3:18 PM edit delete reply
You know something, that's the most moving strip I have seen on your site. I LOVE Rain, she is far and away my favorite webcomic. But seeing this picture makes me proud of your sweetie, and hopeful for the future.....
BetweenARock 18th Apr 2013, 4:19 PM edit delete reply
You're so beautiful! I'm so happy for you!

RAIN has given me strength when I'm working on my own transsexual issues, and seeing a picture of you with this much progress makes me so happy for you. You're an inspiration for me to continue forwards as I grow into a trans-woman! ^_^
Vellikat 19th Apr 2013, 12:16 AM edit delete reply
...Gah... While I am happy for you, this reminds me that there's a few years to go before I can even consider transitioning myself.
Marlee-The-Creator 25th May 2013, 6:42 PM edit delete reply
That's wonderful! You're so beautiful <3~
Dan333 6th Oct 2013, 2:03 AM edit delete reply
Aw, wow! You're beautiful!
But I have to all of the transition pictures I've seen...the biggest difference is the smile! You being yourself, and happy with who you are, is just really wonderful to see. ^^
Maybe when I start T I can go from right to left...but with the smile on the left!
(Whoops...I dunno if you get notifications of changes on these comments...or if you read the old comments at all...but I originally started off with 'Aw, man!'...and then I realized that that phrasing could be taken badly. Sorry!)
Kyla 22nd Oct 2013, 7:13 AM edit delete reply
You are maybe the most Awesome! Best! Person ever!!! And Super Cute =)
Butterfly 6th Dec 2013, 1:18 AM edit delete reply
I dont know why i post on older pages exspecially this one. but i was shown this before by a freind, and i wanted to say loads of stuff about, i saw it here now i was reading and i was like i can finally say them, then i read comments and felt a little hurt i so much wanted to say things that might make you happyer and saw most of what i wanted to say has already been said. but you are awe inspiering and not only am i blessed to have freins that help me on my journy, im glad to see you have yours. and the reason im happy i first saw this pic, was because i saw as said befor, an openly large differnce in your mood for the better. this pic gives me hope :)
Alix 12th Dec 2013, 8:33 AM edit delete reply
Those boobs! You're a very lucky girl. Hope I get that lucky...
Kelly 14th Mar 2014, 6:34 AM edit delete reply
It's awesome to see a lady like me doing a sensitive (and still entertaining!) portrayal of trans folk. Transition's a b***h sometimes, and being open about it takes crazy guts. You've got my respect and my readership. Now please excuse me as I continue to devour your hefty archive.
Kitties 2nd Apr 2014, 9:26 PM edit delete reply
You look awesome! And I've gotta say, being bisexual, you are quite attractive.
Raine... with an E 3rd Apr 2014, 2:48 AM edit delete reply
i cant seem to find the like button. :/
Merithras 27th Aug 2014, 10:10 PM edit delete reply
I love seeing this sort of thing, honestly and am happy for you, i know this was posted ages ago and i'm reading old material, but i don't often see someone being so public about this sort of thing, and more often than not it's usually bad feelings about themselves or otherwise. not everyone makes it to transition, i'm happy you did, and i'm happy your comic, however it does, can educate people. i i.d as male, and actually am male inside, but for my trans friends, and this friggin mosquito that wants to apparently eat my monitor tonight, thanks :) hopefully this will help peoples eyes become as open as my own or your own... this closed minded bigotry needs to stop... i should stop now.. i'm a ranter-type so i'll cut it short here, have fun, and keep kicking ass, i suppose :)
Syrup 6th Sep 2014, 11:17 AM edit delete reply
so here is what you would see if you where looking through the eyes of syrup. Super bitchin hot dude turns into Super bitchin hot girl
_Malevelynt_ 31st Oct 2014, 1:28 PM edit delete reply
Okay, well, I don't comment much because I have only just discovered this and don't even know if it works but I just want to say 1: wow you are beautiful, 2: I ship Maranelllllll and 3: you are my inspiration xxxx and your comic has helped me discover who I really am and is inspiring me to come out which I will do on monday :) (hello, polysexual transboy here)
Ellie Bean 19th Jan 2015, 6:24 PM edit delete reply
Congrats on your transition, I hope you didn't lose loved ones and old friends on the way. I doubt it was easy. You're a very pretty women.
Just call me Nora 23rd Mar 2015, 3:00 PM edit delete reply
Being a 16-years old male-to-female myself, I find this both heartwarming in the extreme and really, REALLY encouraging. Or not, the meaning of those words is just way too shallow to describe my feelings. I'm just simply....happy. For you. For myself. For everyone ever going through this and succeeding. Thank you. Never give up.
NamikoShuuya 15th May 2015, 9:45 PM edit delete reply
Not gonna lie, i didn't see that coming. That being said, I am proud of you for being brave!
inurashii 23rd Jun 2015, 5:49 PM edit delete reply
jackrich 30th Jul 2015, 7:51 PM edit delete reply
Hope you post more pictures of your progress throughout. You look much happier now.
jackrich 30th Jul 2015, 7:51 PM edit delete reply
Hope you post more pictures of your progress throughout. You look much happier now.
Wolfsblood 23rd Aug 2015, 10:43 PM edit delete reply
Wow! This does indeed give me hope. I'll turn 48 before even starting my transition, and while I realize that I may not see that much of a change that quickly, it would honestly mean SOOO much to me right now to go to my 30th class reunion as the woman I've always been. If I can keep my wife through it all, that would be icing on the cake. She's supportive right now, so I'm hoping for the best. Thank you for sharing this, and for writing such a compelling story. <3
Luna 18th Oct 2015, 3:17 PM edit delete reply
Luna 18th Oct 2015, 3:21 PM edit delete reply
Im transgender and i just started transitioning so i hope i look this good in 7 months
Romy 5th Jan 2016, 1:49 PM edit delete reply

Way to go! (5½y on hrt)
blurryface 8th Jan 2016, 12:32 AM edit delete reply
I've been binge reading this comment literally day. This is absolutely amazing, as are you. My ex girlfriend (ex everything, really) is just now starting to come out to people about HIS true self, and he's my best friend still. I just recommended this to him to read and I hope he gets into it as much as I have. I've been part of the LGBT+ community for a little while now and this is absolutely amazing at educating people on all the different sides of our one coin as a community of acceptance. You're an absolutely beautiful girl and I wish you the best of luck with your continued transition and your life. Imma go continue reading dis;) just wanted to let you know how absolutely incredible of a girl and human being you are. And KYS THE CUTEST FICTIONAL GENDERFLUID IVE EVER "MET" just sayin. I love this so much and tho I don't know you, I love you as well. THANK YOU FOR BEING THIS AWESOME
Caelyn Ann 20th Jan 2016, 10:43 PM edit delete reply
I am absolutely in love with your comic and I feel validated by the day to day life issues the whole thing presents. I'm also transitioning and I have felt so close to Rain because I'm also going to a new school (well, my old college, a few years later) and starting my transition into female full time. This is what I read in my spare time to relax me and remind me that my life is just one little snippet of the spectrum. Without this context I don't know where I would be emotionally. Thank you so much for showing yourself and making this personal. You're my hero, haha!
AnOldWolfNamedSteve 4th Mar 2016, 10:17 AM edit delete reply
Want to… comment… but cuteness… killing me… *HHNNNGGGG!*
Brina 4th May 2016, 12:04 AM edit delete reply
You look amazing! Congrats on creating this comic book!
Clara Oswald 14th Jun 2016, 4:28 PM edit delete reply
Looking good!!
Akane 19th Jun 2016, 8:34 PM edit delete reply
Considering this having been posted about 3 years ago, you must look amazingly feminine by today. I admire you, to say the truth. I have already been more than inspired by your comic alone, but this is truly wonderful. Be proud of yourself, I'm trying to do that too, and I honestly hope myself that in a few years, I can come back here and re-read this comment of mine, being still stuck before transition, having such a comparision only existing in my hopes and dreams. But you did it. So can I. Hopefully. Thanks for keeping me inspired so much.
The T.C. 14th Aug 2016, 12:45 AM edit delete reply
Jeez your boobies got so huge almost overnight.

I'm so jealous, but primarily that you can afford new clothes. All the money I make is on art and I have crippling social anxiety so it's almost impossible to get a job.

Though I'm on month six and I'm feeling better than I did in a long time, and honestly I sort of wonder if the whole life starting to be more and more horrible was the testosterone poisoning... though I guess a lot of other horrible stuff happened around puberty time.

Though it's so weird, like yesterday I was feeling so happy for absolutely no reason and my first instinct was "this is wrong, nothing good happened!"

Which I guess it's weird to find depression to be normal and happiness to be something that requires a stipulation. LOL

Even if I can't afford any new clothes, I'm happy my insurance pays for everything so I don't have to worry about any horrible menopause experience.

Like, I really wish I knew about this when I was younger, but hey, I survived and even though I lost thirty years, I'm finally happy.

Not only that but medical science will probably give those thirty back with interest if technology keeps growing like it is.
Alexander 31st Aug 2016, 9:38 AM edit delete reply
W~wow.... *stutters the gay transguy* I'm d~definitely impressed *blushes*
Tookye 6th Nov 2016, 6:48 PM edit delete reply
New to the Comic and lovin' it. BTW, going through the pre primary therapy stages, but ptsd first, and am finding your insight most helpful. It's a long and challenging road.
Lex-Kat 18th Nov 2016, 2:09 AM edit delete reply
Wow! You are stunning. I wonder how much better you look today, 3 1/2 years later.
birdyluv0 21st Nov 2016, 12:00 PM edit delete reply

This is really late, but I want to say that you look great. I'm proud of you ^.^
LGBT_Izzy 24th Mar 2017, 6:07 PM edit delete reply
YOU LOOK SOOOOOO PRETTY! But your soooo older than me... Anyways, you are my idol!!!! You really went from a boy to a girl! Amazing! I could ask why you would want to be a girl, but, I shouldn't cuz then you can ask why I'd want to be a boy.
Arrabella Poppe 5th Apr 2017, 4:14 AM edit delete reply
I started reading from chapter one and got here in a couple hours. Your main character is extremely like me personality wise and life experiance wise but far better at passing then i am and a heck of a lot braver then me i only recently came out and well, im jealous of Rain. Shes how ive alway envisioned myself.

My mom died when i was 13, i never knew my dad, i lived with my aunt till i graduated high school, my aunt was a substitute teacher at my high school for a year and well Rain is dealing with these events way better then i have
SophieKinnee 23rd Nov 2017, 10:03 AM edit delete reply
I love how some of the commentators are so apologetic about being 'late' with their comments. I'm just now finding this in 2017, and I don't care. You are sharing yourself in a way that is.....ok, no, I hate being called an inspiration myself,.. let's just go with you have made me laugh, you have made me cry. you made me cry some more.....Google was right when it described your comic as having a lot of triggers. True as heck, but I would not change it for anything, you really are a treasure.
Skyler Skittles 1st Dec 2017, 8:32 PM edit delete reply
You look gorgeous!!!
Kyergr 3rd Feb 2018, 3:50 AM edit delete reply
The only words that come to mind are congratulations, but also thank you for writing this comic! It's really just opened me up to things even when i thought I was open before, it's also helped me grow closer the a friend of mine who up until recently, the world knew as a girl. So again, thank you and best wishes!!
WaywardS0ci0path 20th Feb 2019, 7:52 PM edit delete reply
Holy crap your boobs look more real than mine and I’m a cisgender woman.
SapphicOverload 29th Jan 2020, 12:29 PM edit delete reply
Yay! I'm so happy for you! <3
ya gorl 15th Mar 2020, 3:31 PM edit delete reply
wow thats only 1 year

ps you look happy so good
Reegan 22nd Aug 2020, 12:36 AM edit delete reply
Congratulations glad you were so happy with your transition back then. It's probably only going even better now.
no 6th Nov 2020, 4:04 PM edit delete reply
oh man that´s great! congratulations!
Hooman Bean 20th Nov 2020, 5:42 PM edit delete reply
Kay I'm years to late, and commenting on TDOR, but you look so pretty!!! I discovered you're comment a while ago, and it really helped when I was questioning. (I use they/them pronouns now)
Hooman Bean 21st Nov 2020, 10:29 AM edit delete reply
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